♥ RKWN ♥

2010-03-28T19:49:00.004+08:00

the cip today was alright.
went to vivo and walked for like 1km or more?
had fun walking and laughing with brigitte, hendra, naibo and whoever la.
i'm like so high and making a fool of myself lo.
but at least i have fun.
haha!
then went to gekpoh to paint the pap de wall.
was so-so la.
i didnt realised that painting can be so tiring, until today.
lols.
but it was quite fun painting as a class la.
and my hair kena the blue paint lo.
wth.
had a hard time washing it off.
i took a very long time to bathe.
all the paint's fault la.
and my sis said nvm la.
treat it as hightlight.
haha!
btw, i think that we (4H) really very bad lo.
let miss ng do everything.
also not her cip, is ours lo.
and i think she really very angry and disappointed with us lo.
i feel so guilty now.
sian...
tmr still got school.
i no mood to study lo.
actually everyday also no mood to study one la.
lols.
alright.
i shall end here.
bye!

2010-03-17T15:11:00.005+08:00

i have a sudden urge to drop to combined science.
those who dropped to combined science seems so relaxed.
and they have a higher chance of getting an A1, or at least an A2.
the most we can get is like a B3 or a B4?
plus i'm not thinking of going to jc.
so whether it's combined science or pure science doesnt really matter.
it's like if i take pure science and i get a B3 and if i take combined science and i get an A2, there is a difference of one grade lo.
it might not seem alot.
but it's actually alot.
but if i drop now, it's like very wasted lo.
somemore the combined science already finish learning everything liao.
hope i did make the right choice by not dropping.

2010-03-12T15:50:00.007+08:00

siann...
everyday also so tired.
in class want to sleep also cannot sleep.
whole class looked so lethargic and dead.
then lesson ends at 4+, go home do hw, study, blah blah blah already so late liao.
11+ so sleepy liao, want to sleep liao.
like that how to do revision for 'o' levels?
although i know that i dont have enough time already.
left a few more months to 'o' levels,
and i still havent started on my revision yet.
but i dont even have the time to rest lo.
like that die liao lo.
somemore now is only march,
still got seven or eight more months to go,
and i'm already half-dead.
like that how to survive?
damn it...

[edited]
i feel so sick and tired of having the same routine almost everyday.
my life is all about study, studies, studying, and nothing else.
i feel so damn freaking no life man.

2010-02-05T21:24:00.003+08:00

yo!
today super duper high.
lols.
anyways, these few days damn slack.
from wed to fri, the sec one to three went for camp.
the sec three went to malaysia lorh.
so cool right?
jealous already larh.
lols.
on wed, when everyone was so excited to go for the camp, we, the sec four and five, have to study for our test.
like wth larh.
then after that went shopping with mum.
bought a dress, a jacket and a bikini!
hehe.
then thur was some resilience workshop.
was so-so.
then class bonding or whatsoever?
as in eat together.
then went back to class to write letter to ourselves.
like so retard larh.
anyways, after that was goal setting.
then went home.
then went to bugis with bri.
reached home at about 10?
then today amazing race.
so fun larh.
then everyone so high.
keep screaming and screaming.
scream like siao lorh.
then 4H got the first and the third.
cool right?
haha!
then went for lunch with bri and went to her house to do a ma.
do until damn pek chek lorh.
the stupid differentiation for trigo.
anyone can help me?
i need help.
lols.

4HALCYON rocks to the max man. i love you guys.

2010-01-23T19:38:00.003+08:00

wow! it's been soo long since i last blogged.
anyway, this shall be a vaery short post as i still have to do my p.geo script.
went out with vanessa today.
ate at tiong bahru market.
then trained down to orchard, and went to taka, just to get rid of our voucher.
lols.
i bought a pair of everlast shoe.
then trained to jurong east and went to daiso.
then vanessa bus-ed home and i trained back to jp, shopped awhile, and bus-ed home after that.

and i have a sudden craving for mango pudding.

2010-01-03T20:31:00.001+08:00

my sec 4 journey is about to begin. it's so scary. lols.

2009-12-31T19:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!

2009-12-29T14:58:00.001+08:00

i suddenly feel like going for the ylc reunion.
but it's too late.
sian.

2009-12-25T13:27:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas !!

2009-12-20T19:39:00.001+08:00

i feel like cutting my hair short.
but i want to grow long hair.
and i feel like cutting bangs.
but i scared my hair will curl back and it will turn out ugly.

2009-12-17T14:53:00.004+08:00

i feel like playing netball, badminton, basketball, swimming, cycling, table tennis (although idk how to) , and all kinds of sports jiu dui le la.

2009-12-14T14:03:00.001+08:00

wo yao yong you yong yuan dou hua bu wan de qian.
$.$

2009-12-13T21:29:00.001+08:00

i feel like learning tkd.

2009-12-13T16:12:00.001+08:00

i want a touch screen phone.

2009-12-10T13:59:00.002+08:00

i want...
a silver glad.
a black one inch high heels.
my own room.
my own bed.
my own wardrobe.
my own study table.
my own dressing table.
my own shoe cabinet.
and i'm being random. ;P

2009-12-01T19:55:00.005+08:00

since shopping = walking,
and walking = exercising,
therefore, shopping = exercising.
and since exercising is good for health,
therefore, shopping s good for health too.
and since we should exercise regularly,
therefore, we should shop regularly too.
however, shopping = spending/wasting money.

2009-11-22T19:12:00.005+08:00

went to malaysia ytd to celebrate my grandma's birthday.
reached home at around one?
slept at around two?
today woke up at around nine plus ten?
but then still quite tired in the morning.
although now not so tired anymore, but i'm having a sore throat and headache.
and i think i will fall sick soon.
roar!

stop telling me what to do larh.
who are you to tell me what to do?
i know what i'm doing lorh.
i dont need you to teach me what to do.
dont expect me to live my life like yours.
and no matter what i do, it's none of your business lorh.
dont make me hate you all larh.
and my ok de cheng du is pass.
is there anything wrong with it?
i dont see what's wrong with it lorh.
if your ok de cheng du is all A or whatever, that's your own problem larh.
everyone have different perspective what.
why do you care so much?
it's not even your problem in the first place lorh.
stop making people pissed with you larh.

[edited]
and fyi, i have lots of friends in school lorh.
just because i dont mix with them doesnt mean i dont have friends in school lorh.
in fact, i have friends outside school also lorh.
i think that the one without friends is you bah.
given your busybody-ness, i doubt you have friends lorh.
and stop commenting on anything related to me larh.
i dont need you to teach me how to live my life.
i know how to and what to do.

[edited again]
i dont mix with them doesnt mean i'm selfish or whatever shit lorh.
no logic at all.
wa.
simply because i didnt mix with them, you all can conclude that i'm selfish, i've changed, i feel embarrassed, and whatever shit.
not bad uh.
go be journalist or something larh.
since you people are so imaginative and so creative.
fine.
since you people think that i'm selfish, i've changed, i feel embarrassed, and whatever shit, so be it.
and since you all think that way, and if i didnt mix with them, then you all at there kao bei kao bu for what?
diam larh.
you all so kpo for what?
ya.
take it that i'm selfish, i've changed, i feel embarrassed, and whatever shit.
i dont give a damn lorh.

2009-11-14T19:57:00.003+08:00

i know i quite long never post already.
but too bad.
who ask me to be so lazy.
lols.
anyways, went out with liyoke today.
went to bugis to shop.
it was fun.
i want to go out with her again.
haha!
ok. i shall end here.
ciaoz.

2009-10-30T19:41:00.002+08:00

went out with bri today.
actually wanted to do e ma one.
but then ended up shopping.
lols.
sian.
suckers sucks.

2009-10-30T10:47:00.002+08:00

today is officially the last day of school.
or was it ytd?
aiya. dont care larh.
cos we still have extended lesson for 3 weeks.
sian.
went jogging just now.
jogged around cps.
i think i took a lesser time as compared to roadrun?
cos there's no one.
i have the whole pathway to myself.
haha!
waiting for bri's msg.
cos still dont know want to go library do e ma together anot.

2009-10-29T19:23:00.003+08:00

ocu today.
cleaned the tables with brigitte and chinleng.
there's alot of sweet wrappers under the table.
so sickening lorh.
roar!
after that, went to jp with bri and vanessa.
actually wanted to eat sushi buffet at sakae one.
but because of something, we decided to go to jw stadium there.
actually wanted to eat sakura one.
but then 6 then open.
-.-
so we go eat ri ben chun.
before we start eating, i keep complaining that i'm hungry.
but then i eat abit only very full already.
damn it lorh.
then took some photos and had lots of laughters while taking the photos.
lols.
after that bri and vanessa went to jp.
and i walked home.
good for digestion.
haha!

i shall go jogging tmr morning.
then after that go to the library with bri to do e ma.
hehe.

2009-10-27T14:15:00.004+08:00

ytd was alright.
mdm told us that everyone got promoted to 4H next year.
thank god.
lols.
lesson ended at 12.30 because of the o's.
went to bri's house at around 1.30.
then go gp buy ingredients.
then went back to her house to bake cake, cookies and made mango pudding.
yumyum.
haha!
then went to jp.
i bought my bag.
bri ate her dinner.
walked around.
and went back after that.
hehe.
today was alright too.
nothing special happened.
then after school got sc meeting for the sec one registration.
i'm going to babysit with jiayun and vanessa.
cool right?
lols.
and i want to know my reaults asap.
but still have to wait till fri.
sian.
plus the sec two this year so good lorh.
they got so many sub combination lorh.
we only have like 4?
they got like 6 or 9?
plus they got triple maths lei.
i also want.
damn it.

2009-10-24T20:00:00.001+08:00

went out with vanessa today.
shopped around jp for awhile.
then go library.
took some photos.
and went home.
my sushi buffet, here i come.
lols.

2009-10-23T18:11:00.002+08:00

today is promotion exercise day.
so by right, dont need to go to school one.
but then i still have to go back for the photo-taking for sc.
went back for 30mins.
waste my time only.
lols.
anyways, hope the promotion exercise thingy went well.
hope i can get promoted.
stupid eng. :/

and what for the school retain someone if he/she fails eng?
as if after being retained, their eng will improve like that.
if they retain someone for ma, sci, etc, i've got nothing to say.
cos maybe it's because their concepts is not there or they dont understand something.
and after being retained, they might understand better or whatever.
being retained for eng?
what can they do with that person?
and what if after being retained, u fail your eng again?
retain again?
brainless!

2009-10-23T17:59:00.002+08:00

went swimming with bri ytd.
it was fun.
actually wanted to become tanner and burn some fats one.
but no sun and straightaway after we swam, we go eat kfc.
lols.
but we did enjoy ourselves, which is the main thing.
hehe.
went to jp after that.
i bought my nail polish and went off after that.
haha!
hanging out with brigitte is fun! ^^

2009-10-21T16:09:00.002+08:00

home at ww. took back a ma paper.
not too bad. but can be better.
chi lesson, went through paper.
p geo lesson, took back paper and went through it.
dont know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing.
good thing is because i pass.
which is like so unexpected larh.
bad thing is because i just pass.
lols.
recess.
e ma took back paper one and went through abit.
not very well done though.
chem lesson, ms lee let us check our eng paper and told us our oral marks.
and i fail, even after adding my oral marks.
how? how? how?
i dont want to retain.
hopefully my CA can pull my grade up.
*pray hard hard*
chem lesson left half an hour.
took back paper and went through abit.
not too bad but can be better.
ss took back paper.
okok larh.
after lesson, went to the hall for the cca cert thingy.
then accompany jiayun wait for her cca to start.
walked around plus chitchat.
she asked me not to drop my p geo.
then i say if my overall got 51 and above then i dont drop.
and if i got below 51 then i will drop.
BUT,
maybe i will drop even if i got 51 and above or i might not drop even if i got below 51.
haha!
aiya. depends larh.
hehe.

2009-10-20T16:22:00.004+08:00

SHIT!!!!

today our class only got 17 ppl.
cool right?
lols.
the rest got econs thingy.
then go RP.
so left 17 ppl.
like so pathetic larh.
haha!
sang the national anthem 3 or 4 times.
sian.
pushball was alright.
huiping very hiong.
lols.
chi lesson took back paper.
pass but still very badly done. :(
pe was fun fun fun.
played captain's ball.
sir played with us.
lots of laughing, shouting, screaming, running.
lols.
recess didnt eat much.
drank a cup of milo and that's all.
then after that very hungry.
lols.
p geo watch movie.
phy took back paper.
just pass.
e ma took back paper 2.
okok larh.
stupid lorh. anyhow minus off my one mark for accuracy.
roar!
cme was so-so.
sir told us story.
lols.
and i dont feel like dropping my p geo anymore.
should i?
well. depends bah.
i see my overall result first then decide.
eng lesson is like shit lorh.
cos my eng results is like shit.
i fail both my paper 1 and paper 2. :(
according to jiayun's calculations, i need to get at least a 34/40 for my oral in order to pass.
impossible one lorh.
hopefully my CA can pull my eng grade up larh.
at least let me pass.
*pray hard*
i cant fail my eng. cos i cant retain. :'(
I DONT WANT TO RETAIN!

2009-10-13T11:28:00.001+08:00

finally...

2009-09-25T14:19:00.002+08:00

shit!
both english paper 1 and chinese paper 1 flunk already larh.
chinese oral was a disaster for me.
I WANT TO RETAKE MY CHINESE ORAL! :'(
english oral sure same thing one.
now only can depend on my paper 2 already.
but then my english sucks.
and chinese sure not enough time one lorh.
other sections plus 5 compre within one and a half hour lei.
those normal test only got 2 or 3 compre within one hour i already not enough time alredy lorh.
damn.

2009-09-19T19:26:00.003+08:00

it has been a long time since i last blogged.
ok larh. actually it's not long lorh.
lol.
this shall be the last post before the exams.
time flies.
five more days to eng and chi paper one.
six more days to chi oral.
two or three more weeks to the other papers.
and i still haven started revising.
i have a feeling that i'm running short of time.
there's so much to revise and yet so little time.
i keep telling myself that it's time to revise.
but in the end i didnt do it at all.
i always find excuses.
i always say tmr, tmr, tmr.
and the worse thing is that i dont have motivation at all.
kohwanni, jiayous!

2009-09-08T14:46:00.006+08:00

went for a dance workshop (hiphop) at the esplanade ytd.

met up with huiping first.

cos huicheang they all were late.

so while waiting for them, we two walked around jp aimlessly.

they all came.

mrt-ed to cityhall.

walked to esplanade.

still very early.

still got one more hour before the workshop begins.

walked around.

actually wanted to go eat.

but in the end didnt.

slacked around.

the workshop finally begins.

the person talk awhile, told us about hiphop.

then another person taught us some basic steps.

was quite fun.

after the workshop, walked around.

then separated from the others, left hp, hc and me.

mac.

mrt-ed to bugis.

shopped.

actually wanted to buy something together by the end of the day one.

but then didnt.

only hc and i bought something.

we spent twenty-five bucks each.

mrt-ed back.

hp alighted at lakeside.

then hc and i took 181 together.

talked about contact lens while on the bus.

and i still haven told my mum that i bought new clothes.

lols.

this week's schedule:

mon: dance workshop.

tues: e ma

wed: ss

thurs: phy

fri: a ma

alright.

i shall go and do my acelearning already.

ciaoz.

2009-08-24T18:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAD!

took back e ma paper just now.
got higher than what i expected.
but it's lower than my standard.
i know and i'm sure i can do better than this.

sore throat :x

2009-08-21T16:56:00.003+08:00

hi peeps!
common tests are finally over.
but haven take back the papers yet.
when taking back the papers that time, sure die one.
i have a feeling that i will do badly for every subject.
e ma was a disaster for me.
not enough time plus dont know how to do.
left the last qns blank, which is worth 8 marks.
then after that, mr lee went through with us some of the qns and i seems to get it all wrong.
totally no mood after that.
cos it's the first paper and the subject which i have the most confidence in.
ss was so-so.
spent too much time on the SEQ then not enough time for the SBQ.
eng was ok.
chem was quite difficult.
plus when i want to change the ans for the last qns, time's up.
so i think i will get it wrong.
pgeo.
confirm plus chop plus guarantee flunk one.
didnt study for it.
was focusing on my chem.
then during recess time, tried to study for it.
but nothing went in.
so throughout the whole paper, i'm just crapping.
phy was easier then expected.
but got 2 marks sure fly away one.
okay.
shall end here.
shall blog again next time, when i have the time, when i have something to blog about, when i feel like doing so.
LOL!
bye peeps!

2009-08-01T19:56:00.001+08:00

2009-07-31T14:23:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUM!
gosh...
lots of tests and exams are coming up.
gonna jiayous already.
folkdance filming on mon.
i dont know what to post already.
plus i'm lazy.
it seems to have some problem uploading pictures.
shall post the picture of the cute little cupcake? which the birthday girl sew and gave and the neo which i took with bri and van soon.

2009-07-28T22:28:00.012+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA!

went out with vanessa and brigitte on sat.
supposed to meet at 1.30pm.
but both bri and i were late by half an hour.
poor van who have to wait for so long.
meet up already, kfc-ed at jp.
mrt-ed to bugis.
took neo.
ate mac ice-cream.
shopped.
mrt-ed to orchard.
shopped.
mrt-ed back to boonlay.
dinner-ed at banquet.
van went back.
bri and i continued to shop around jp.
bus-ed back together.
reached home at around 10?

today after school, bus-ed to jp with the birthday girl.
had mac for lunch.
seaweed shaker fries.
then walked around aimlessly.
then went to the bus stop to take some photos.
homed after that.

2009-07-15T12:07:00.002+08:00

gosh.
absent from school for three long days.
confirm miss out alot of stuffs one.
when i go back to school, need to catch up with the others already.
need to chiong like siao already.
actually i should be in school now.
doctor gave me two days mc.
which is mon and tue.
but today morning wake up got fever again.
yesterday no fever one lorh.
so suay.
sian.
ciaoz.

2009-07-14T15:07:00.003+08:00

" i want nobody nobody but you "
*clapclap*
LOL!!!
YLC and APACHE rocks!
"give me one i love you clap"
*clap*
i love APACHE.
i love the people here.
i love the SLs (faith, pamela, deborah, jervis, macus)
i love the campers too (jiayun, jiayi, valerina, zhixuan, daniel, sheryl, jovin, syuhrah, teckwoon, jiayi, eugene)
i love APACHE.
right here in YLC.
LOL!!!

the good thing is that the camp is fun, enjoyable, interesting.
the bad thing is that i'm sick straight away after the camp.
40 degree celcius.
got two days mc.
will be going back to school tomorrow.
but have to catch up with the others already.
cos during this two days, confirm miss out alot one.
ciaoz.

2009-07-09T17:47:00.002+08:00

today is the third day of school already.
both good and bad.
good as in can get to see my friends.
and no more hbl means no more sufferings.
bad as in have to wake up early everyday.
cant really get used to it.
but no choice.
then dont know why yesterday so tired.
knock out at 9 like that.
anyways, i will be going for a ngee ann poly camp from fri to sun.
ciaoz.

2009-07-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

2009-07-06T11:16:00.003+08:00

gosh.
school starts tmr and my hw are still not done.
i'm dead.

went for the streetwise run ytd.
had fun with lena, emma, chelsea, rebecca, rachael.
ran for dont know 4.5km or 5.3km.
after that, went to vivo with them.
ate ljs.
i'm cold plus shivering.
went back at around 8 plus 9 like that.
the run was tiring but fun.
ran in the rain.
damn shiok larh.
very long since i ran in the rain already.
luckily i'm not sick.
but my body is aching.

went back to school just now for a maths extra lesson.
i was a little bit late though.

need to chiong finish all my hw by today already.
if not, i'm really dead.
ciaoz.

2009-06-26T19:41:00.003+08:00

2009-06-26T19:11:00.003+08:00

left two more days to the end of the school holidays.
still left loads of holiday assignments untouched and undone.
feel that i wont be able to complete everything within the next two days.
a ma, chem, phy, chi, lit, cme.
but i shall leave my chinese to the last.

didnt manage to went out with joy on wed.
didnt manage to went swimming or jogging or shopping with sis on thur.
didnt manage to went kbox with liyoke, xinmei, jingyi today.
but, did manage to went to jp with liyoke.
jingyi and xinmei last minute couldnt make it.
so meet up with liyoke only.

met at 12+ at jp.
bus-ed to boonlay to get her shoe.
had alot of laughters.
bus-ed back to jp.
ate pepper lunch.
chatted.
went to the playground near the library.
had a long and nice chat.
met a "sicko"
so left that place.
took pics.
went back to jp.
sit down.
bluetooth-ed songs.
laughed.
she went home while i go meet my sis.
shopped awhile.
then home.

2009-06-23T19:00:00.002+08:00

my blog is rotting plus dying.
anyways, the school holiday is coming to an end soon.
and i still haven finish up my holiday assignment.
dont think i can finish it when school reopens.
i'm dead.
three weeks plus has passed.
left with less than one week.
plus i'll be going out almost everyday this week.

mon : sc rehearsal. boring.
tue : sc rehearsal. very boring.
wed : actually wanted to have an outing with joy one. but she still has not confirmed with me. so, should be a no. haix. has been postponing this outing again and again. actually wanted to have this outing last year christmas one. but, it's either i'm not free or she's not free. but, nvm.
thur : maybe going swimming with sis. still not confirmed though. it has been a long long time since we last went swimming together. miss those times.
fri : outing with liyoke, xinmei, jingyi. jingyi is not sure though. but most probably it's a yes. really very looking forward to the outing. it has been a long long time since we last met each other. about a year ago? really missed those old times.

okie dokie.
shall end here.
blog again some other time.
most probably before school reopens bah.

2009-06-01T15:58:00.002+08:00

after rebonding

2009-06-01T14:24:00.003+08:00

before rebonding

2009-06-01T13:49:00.002+08:00

very long never post already.
lazy and have been quite busy recently.
fri was the last day of school.
had ocu.
cleaned the tables and chairs with jiayun, vanessa, jiayi, daniel, amirah.
was quite boring.
i missed the ocu last year.
cos me and abigail cleaned the classroom together.
climbing up the chairs, shouting, laughing.
was fun.
sat was the start of the holidays.
but i have to go back to school for nyaa camp briefing and perth trip briefing.
went home then went out with sis.
sun go see doc and rebond.
was having cough and sore throat for like one whole week already.
somemore two weeks ago i'm sick, then now sick again.
i dont want to be sick while i'm at perth.
then after that go rebond my hair.
i've been waiting for this day for so long already lorh.
and this day finally arrives.
actually wanted to cut bangs one.
but in the end i didnt.
but i still like my hair.
this is like the first time my hair is so straight lorh.
a few more days to perth trip.
hope nothing happens within this few days.
and hope everyone have fun and enjoy ourselves.
and of course, everyone come back heathily larh.

2009-05-20T17:21:00.007+08:00

phew!
mye is finally over.
i shall have lots of fun and enjoy myself from now onwards.
just in case when i get back my papers, i cant do so anymore.
i think i did badly for all the papers.
if i didnt remember wrongly, this is the first time i left freaking hell lots of blanks for almost all the papers.
e ma p1 : was so-so. but i think i got alot of careless mistakes.
chi p2 : was rushing in the end. not enough time.
eng p2 : i'm dead meat. but it's expected. cos my eng sux.
phy : dead. heard that only 7 people manage to pass. if i'm not wrong. and i'm sure i'm one of the failers. cos i left lots of blanks.
e ma p2 : not enough time for me. and i think i got alot of careless mistakes. and i left lots of blanks.
ss : was so-so. but i shouldnt have done (a) of section B. should have done (b). cos before the paper, we keep on focusing on that. but i dont know that the question is asking for that. if not, i'll do (b).
chem : left lots of blanks too.
e lit : the paper was long. almost everyone was gone except for us. but to me, the time given is just right.
a ma : i'm dead. i left damn lots of blanks. blanks worth 20 marks. that means my 20 marks is gone for sure.
p geo : was so-so. except that i was rushing in the end. cos i took my own sweet time at the beginning. and it's like so unexpected for me to find the paper so-so. cos my p geo sux too. so far, out of 4 tests, i only managed to pass 1. but whether anot i pass, it's another thing.
haix...
just hope that i can pass all my papers.
but i know it's impossible.
if it's impossible for me to even pass, then how can i score?
haix...
nevermind.
since it's already over.
no use brooding over it.
it'll still be the same.
maybe it's because i didnt put in enough efforts.
i shall work harder next time.
jiayous!

2009-05-04T19:15:00.000+08:00

MIA

2009-05-04T18:44:00.002+08:00

have not been updating my blog for quite some time.
lazy.
tiring and sleepy day for me today.
dont feel like waking up in the morning.
freaking tired and sleepy.
went to school, took temperature, silent reading, did our own thing.
my temperature was 37.4
e ma, boring.
p.geo, took back test paper and i made an improvement, from 2/20 to 14/20.
el, vocab test and temperature taking again.
and my temperature was 36.6
recess.
e.lit, boring, as usual.
chem, so-so.
a ma, took back test paper and i made an improvement too, from 13/30 to 24/30.
phy, very boring. did a ws and idk how to do more than half of it.
fd, super duper fun or high or siao. esp with qiuyun, brigitte, andy, alison.
then went home after that.

i'm dead!
mye is in a week's time and i still haven't started revising.
still slacking, msn-ing, friendster-ing, facebook-ing, blogging.
diediedie

2009-04-29T18:50:00.002+08:00

DAMN IT...
STUPID SWINE FLU...
I WANT TO GO TO PERTH ONE LEI...
PLEASE LARH...
LET ME GO TO PERTH FIRST...
RAWR...
fuckfuckfuck

2009-04-22T15:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRO!
both english and chinese paper 1 are over.
like finally.
but there's still alot of papers left.
haix.
i wonder how i did for both my english and chinese paper 1 just now.
hope i did well, or at least ok.
but even if i didnt do well, there's nothing i can do now.
because it's already over.
no use thinking of it.
the only thing now is to do well for the other papers.
i shall not disappoint myself anymore.
i hope?

2009-04-21T17:43:00.002+08:00

fuck fuck fuck
a ma was sucky.
had a quiz.
6 questions within 6 mins.
and i got a big fat 0 on the spot.
just because i do it on a piece of foolscape paper.
chi was boring, as usual.
e ma was noisy, as usual.
recess.
p.geo was sucky too.
took back test paper and again, i fail it.
not only fail, but fail until very jialat.
did corrections for the whole 45mins.
ss was boring.
ms suharti was absent, again.
cme, mr ong was also absent.
phy, went to the lab.
break.
eng lesson cum eng extra lesson.
1 hour 30 mins of eng lesson in the classroom.
without any break or anything.
somemore, the same boring teacher for the whole 1 hour 30 mins.
and it's that ms lee.
people were either sleeping or chatting away.
can you image it?
whatever.

shit!
tomorrow is paper 1 and i'm still blogging.
somemore, i flunk all tests/exams.
i'm a goner.
diediedie
useless bum.
i'm a useless bum.
kohwanni is a useless bum.
need to push myself already.
have to work harder.
gonna buck up.
i must jiayou.
people, pray hard for me and wish me luck ok?

2009-04-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

today is like a shyt day for me.
first period of the day was chinese.
was chatting and laughing with wanxin.
didnt pay attention at all.
no mood at all sia.
then had social studies.
ms suharti was not in school.
did a piece of ws.
anyhow do one.
no mood to do.
then followed by e ma lesson.
was so-so.
i lost my school badge.
recess.
one period of chem was wasted.
kanna scolded by ms ng.
haix.
dismissed.
sc meeting.
then jiayun went home with me.
then went to have our lunch as well as dinner.
she ate waffle and i drank bubble tea.
and that's all.
was very hungry during the whole awards day ceremony thingy.
then went to find mr lee for e ma.
followed by a ma extra lesson with mr heng.
took back test paper.
was super duper sad + disappointed + angry + frustrating + ......
actually i pass my test one lorh.
i got 18/30
but for some stupid reason, i got 13/30 in the end.
which means i fail.
simply because i divide the paper into half.
and 5 marks were deducted.
i from pass to fail.
like wth? wtf?
then went to the sc room.
the thing at the back of my sc badge came off.
idk what's that called.
sc duty.
damn sian.
then after the whole awards day ceremony thingy, went back home.
bathed and dinner and blogging.

haix.
idk what happened to me recently.
i simply dont have the mood to do anything/everything.
was not paying attention in class most of the time.
no mood at all.
what should i do?

2009-04-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

2009-04-14T19:00:00.002+08:00

went out with vanessa, jareb, jiacheng on sun to celebrate my birthday.
met at 9.30am.
then went to kfc cos jiacheng havent had his breakfast yet.
he ate american breakfast.
then jareb said he wanted to help him poke the milo.
then in the end the whole milo spilled.
and jareb himself kanna.
haha!
then went to the arcade.
then watched movie.
fast and furious 4 !
after that went to the arcade again.
took neo.
and went home after that.
had lots fun.
really enjoy myself very much.
thank you guys!

2009-04-05T20:35:00.002+08:00

woots!
10 more days to my birthday!
is looking forward to it.
i wonder how will my birthday be this year.
hopefully, it will be a memorable one.
i want it to be a memorable birthday.
still deciding whether i should celebrate it with my friends.
feel like doing so.
because it has been a long long time since i last celebrated my birthday.
but, i didnt plan anything at all.
and if i'm going to celebrate it with my friends, idk who, what, when, where, how.
whatever it is, i just want this year's birthday to be the most memorable one.

2009-03-21T21:04:00.003+08:00

i want to go back to 15/04/1994
i want 6.1'06 gathering.
i want 2H'08 outing.
i want 3H'09 outing.
i want cliquesix+two outing.
i want mamypoko or mamywang outing.
andihateher

2009-03-17T22:09:00.002+08:00

tagged by qiuyun...

1) Beside ur lips, where is ur favourite spot to get kissed?
cheek? forehead? actually, idk.
2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
i feel like sleeping.
3) Who was the last person you took a photo with?
jiaqi
4) Would you consider urself to be spoiled?
think so.
5) Would you ever donate blood?
not sure. but should be no. cos i'm scared.
6) Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
i think so.
7) Do you want someone die?
what do u think? no larh.
8) What does your last text msg says?
something regarding a ma?
9) What are you thinking right now?
idk :/
10) Do you wish someone was with you right now?
yes bah.
11) What time did you go to slp last night?
3+am.
12) Where did you buy the t-shirt you are wearing now?
forget already.
13) Is someone on ur mind right now?
think so.
14) Who was the last person to text you?
my didi.
10 PPL TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ:
1-xingyi
2-wilson
3-yazid
4-lena
5-sylvia
6-zoe
7-seeyin
8-jiayun
9-vanessa
10-qiuyun
(anyone who wants to do it, just do it.)
15) Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
idk :/
16) Is no.3 a male or female?
duh... male larh.
17) If 7 and 10 get together, will that be a good thing?
i dont think they know each other.
18) What is no.1 studying abt?
sec 2 stuffs?
19) Is no.4 single?
not sure.
20) Say smth abt no.2.
good boy. haha!
21) What do you think abt no.3 and no.6 being tgt?
they are samebirthdate.
22)Describe no.9.
good girl. haha!
23) What will you do if no.6 and 7 fight?
they wont fight one larh.
24) Do you like no.8 ?
of course!

2009-03-16T20:42:00.004+08:00

SL camp'09!
day 1
assemble at 3pm at the foyer.
had a short briefing.
then went for a hike around the neighbourhood.
was so-so.
after that, went back to school and had outing cooking.
was okok.
cos not everyone get to help out.
but, the food is not too bad.
cos we dont have any proper equipment.
after that, played the concentration game.
and combined with group 5.
after that, played "trust" ?
was blind-folded and we have to move around, holding each other's hand.
was quite fun.
had alot of shouting/screaming.
then learnt some cheer after that.
supper, shower, lights off.
day 2
wake up at 6.00
did some morning exercise.
had breakfast.
then a short briefing regarding the amazing race.
went to sentosa at about 10+
it was funfunfun!
mamypoko combined with wangwang!
the girls - keryn, syafawati, rebecca, weiyun, germane, jiali and me were super high!
we shouted, cheered, sang, danced on the bus!
but the guys - leon and terence were not high at all.
went to jp first, then to vivo, and finally sentosa.
keep running around.
saw limei, haikal, zisong, fuhong at sentosa.
then went back to school and we were quite high on the bus.
but there's ppl sleeping.
so cannot make too much noise.
reached school and prepared for campfire.
shouted, cheered, sang, danced!
was super duper high!
had dinner and the food is not too bad.
CAMPFIRE!!
we were damn high!
esp syafawati, keryn and me!
we were screaming, shouting, cheering, singing, dancing!
and i nearly lost my voice.
but, it's all worth it.
after that, shower, supper, gossip, lights off.
day 3
woke up at 6.10
was late by 10 mins.
anyways, kanna scolded when we went down to assemble.
because alot of ppl were late.
had breakfast.
then area cleaning.
and we cleaned the home econs room.
after that, we gossip again and took some photos.
then everyone did our own things.
and our group was thinking of "clap" for everyone.
we "invented" serena, jianzhong, rose, syafawati, leonard, leonard, leon, germane, syazwan, joel... clap.
was fun!
then took alot of photos.
and then break camp.
was quite sad larh.

SL CAMP'09 ROCKS!!
MAMYPOKO + WANGWANG = MAMYWANG!!
MAMYWANG ROCKS!!
SERENA, ROSE, JIANZHONG ROCKS!!
SYAFAWATI, KERYN, REBECCA, WEIYUN, GERMANE, JIALI, LEON, TERENCE, LEONARDS ROCKS!!

2009-03-12T16:17:00.002+08:00

hellos! :)
it has been such a long time since i last blogged.
but i dont want my blog to be dead.
anyways, today is just not my day.
did latecomer duty in the morning.
was fun.
but, i skipped one full period of phy.
hope i didnt miss out anything important.
chinese lesson was boring.
had eng vocab test after that.
sure fail one lorh.
idk how to do.
took back the previous vocab test and i failed.
i got 4/10
recess was alright.
went to chem lab after that.
did some experiment and took back result slip.
i hate my results sia.
i'm so damn disappointed with myself lorh.
i failed 2 sub lei.
phy and geo.
although it's kind of expected de,
i'm really disappointed lorh.
i later dont dare let my father sign sia.
sure kanna scolding one lorh.
after taking back the result slip, was kinda emo and i nearly cried out sia.
it's just that i'm trying not to cry.
anyways, after chem was a ma.
did the notes.
then followed by e ma lesson.
was sort of boring.
then dimissed.
had lunch with joy dearest mummy.
chatted for awhile.
then she walk me home.
thanks, joy dearest mummy!
haix. still have to go for sl camp tmr.
will be MIA-ing from fri to sun.
and i still havent packed my bag yet.
shall end here.
byes! [:

aretheyreferingtome?

2009-03-04T19:27:00.004+08:00

hellos! :)

i miss sec 3 adventure camp.
i miss danson (handsome).
i miss jingni (pretty).
i miss the times 3H spent together during the 3D2N.
i miss everything that is related to the sec 3 adventure camp.

i miss the times when we are so crazy together.
i miss the times when we had so much fun together.
i miss the times we spent together.
i miss the old times.
i dont know whether it's because i'm thinking too much or it's the truth.
i hope that i'm thinking too much.
i dont know whether i did the right thing.
i want the old times back.

byes! :]

2009-02-28T12:53:00.004+08:00

time flies...
why is it that all those fun times passed by so quickly?
sec 3 adventure camp is over.
sl camp will be next.

i miss the sec 3 adventure camp!
i miss pretty and handsome!
i miss the fun we had as a class!
pretty and handsome rocks!
3H rocks!
i love 3H!

and i miss the times we spent together,
the crazy times we spent together,
the fun times we spent together,
the times when we were so crazy,
the times when we had so much fun,
when we were together.

2009-02-27T13:32:00.004+08:00

i'm back from the sec 3 adventure camp!
though it's quite tiring, i had lots of fun.
day 1
assemble in the school first.
then get to know our intructors.
Jingni (pretty) & Danson (handsome)
played some games.
then went to the campsite.
settle down first then went to put our things in the hut.
and the hut is so cool.
then went for lunch.
the food is quite yucky.
after that, we had campfire prep.
alot of time is wasted.
then we had low elements.
was quite fun.
the followed by kayaking.
but, our class didnt get to kayak because of the stupid weather.
it's raining.
so, we cant kayak.
though we didnt kayak, we still have to help them keep and wash the stuffs.
like wtf larh.
so we use the time for campfire prep.
then we went to bath.
after bathing, we practice the dance for the campfire again.
and we saw something cool.
the left side of the hall which we are at, is raining.
the right side is not raining.
and we saw two rainbows.
cool right?
then we had dinner.
the food is better than lunch.
after that, we had a night activity.
"kinapped"
was quite fun.
but very hot cos we keep running around.
then went to bed.
day 2
wake up at around 6.00
then get ready all that.
assemble at the carpark.
did some morning activity.
then had breakfast.
then we had to do some area cleaning.
followed by some low elements.
then practiced the dance.
after that, we had flying fox.
but, due to the time limit, some ppl couldnt get to play (me included)
followed by rock climbing.
i fell quite a number of times.
cos i no place to step onto.
but in the end still manage to reach the middle part.
then had lunch.
then rain again.
so we played some games.
caterpillar and entangled.
then while playing the entangled, we took very long to solve it.
and i'm at the bottom of all those hands.
so my hair is freaking messy.
then after that we keep practising and practising our dance.
and the rain stopped.
so we went to play the mud (idk what it's called)
was dirty but quite fun.
then went to bath after that.
followed by dinner.
the food is good.
then campfire.
was funfunfun.
cos our class is super duper high.
out of all the sec 3 classes, our class is the most hyper.
we were like shouting and screaming.
but our class performance was quite late and most of the ppl are tired already.
but then, we still give our best.
then had supper and went to bed.
day 3
wake up at around 6.00
then get ready all that.
then went to the canteen to do our reflections.
get ready for duty.
after breakfast, had area cleaning.
then we were slacking.
so we played some games.
then had prize presentation.
followed by some photo-taking and autograph-ing.
then went back to school and home.

the campsite is wayway better than expected.
i expected it to be those ulu ulu type.
but it's not.
and it's quite big.
esp. the toilet.
haha!
and i like all the instructors.
they are like so funny larh.
had lots and lots of fun.
though we couldnt get to kayak and try out flying fox for some of us, it's quite fun ya.
3H is super duper high!
i love 3H!

2009-02-24T19:04:00.003+08:00

hellos! :)
i know i very long never blog already.
but i dont want my blog to be dead so i now blog.
today so-so larh.
jiayun was sick (again)
ss test was quite difficult (?) for me larh.
and geo test was very difficult (?) for me larh.
eng lesson was about the camp (?)
idk larh.
pe was fun but tiring.
was like same kind of training (?)
recess
chi was boring.
i'm not listening during ma lesson.
cos idk why i just cant concentrate.
ss was boring too.
did a ws.
phy was ok larh.
got back our common test paper.
and i passed.
like so unexpectedly larh.
cos i didnt expect myself to pass.
but overall, still fail.
got 49.8/100
fail by 0.2
hope that the teacher will round up larh.
haha!

adventure camp tmr till fri.
was kinda looking forward to it, as well as not looking forward to it.
idk why.
i just hope that i will enjoy myself.
cos if i really enjoy myself, hopefully i can forget about school/studies larh.
and i know i'm going to miss my bed, my hp, my com.
kk. shall end here. gotta go continue packing my bag already.
byes! :]

2009-02-14T11:05:00.000+08:00

love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails.

2009-02-14T10:32:00.002+08:00

2009-02-12T17:43:00.002+08:00

omg!
i forgot to bring my chemistry notes home, AGAIN!
the first two times is a maths.
then this time is chemistry.
how to study like that?
i next time really dont want to file things in already larh.
everytime got test all that, everytime forget to bring home one.
then cannot study.
shitass!

2009-02-10T20:55:00.001+08:00

Hi! :D
i shall not post about today.
lazy.
cos today is a longlong day.
lesson till 3.30 then film appreciation till 6.00
sports meet tmr.
idk what time to leave home sia.
i scared too early or too late.
anyways, maybe having lunch with some 1A peeps after that.
promised them wayway before.
but everytime also postpone.
"sorry larh"

anyways, there's a maths test on thurs.
and i forgot to bring my a maths file home, AGAIN!
the last time also left my notes in school.
then this time also left my notes in school.
diediedie
i next time really dont want to file my notes all that already larh.
wait till the last minute.
cos everytime got test or what, everytime forget to bring home.
then in the end cannot study.
-.-

anyways, really feel like dropping pure geo sia.
but then both my bro and sis ask me dont drop.
jiayun also ask me dont drop.
then got one friend say see this year's result first.
then another one say if want to drop, faster drop. if not, i'll be struggling.
so now idk whether to drop anot lei.
cos in the first place, i'm left with no choice then i choose p.geo one lor.
cos i want a maths.
so i can only take either p.geo or econs or bio.
but all three i also dont like.
so in the end choose p.geo lorh.
but i cant understand a damn thing lorh.
so now i really dont know.

2009-02-09T16:54:00.003+08:00

today sucks.
had attire check in the morning.
then pure geography.
took back our test paper and i failed.
then jiayun says next time if take back any test paper or what, cannot be in the first period.
because after that, i'll be emo-ing for the rest of the day.
quite true actually.
then elective literature.
copied notes.
followed by chinese lesson.
was bored.
recess.
then a maths.
went through the notes.
cme lesson was alright.
went to the computer lab to do our SLP.
me and jiayun was like slacking.
was emo-ing.
and i feel like crying.
i want to cry like nobody's business.
english lesson was bored.
maths lesson was quite bored too.
because very quiet today.
because got VP and another teacher in the class.
so everybody actact.
haha!
then went home.
and here i am, blogging.
feeling guilty because of some reasons.
my 1A babies, sorry.
emo-ing in process.
i feel like going to the beach now.
i feel like crying like nobody's business.
i feel like screaming like nobody's business.
got to go and study for the ss test tomorrow.

2009-02-05T15:24:00.001+08:00

haix...
i want two years' time to faster pass.
because i want faster finish my 'O' levels.
cos after 'O' levels wont be so stress anymore.
and can have more freedom.

ifeltthattheyhateme
becauseitisgettingmoreandmoreobvious
butidontcareadamn
becausefranklyspeakingihatethemtoo
andidontmindlosingthem
becauserightfromthestartialreadyfeelit
andiambeginningtohatethemtoo
becausetheysucks
ihatethatbunchoffuckers

2009-02-05T14:54:00.004+08:00

today is a bad day.
physics was ok.
then had chinese test.
not enough time lor.
then my compre ans write very short cos i only have 20mins for the compre.
english was ok too.
recess.
followed by a chemistry quiz.
not too bad lar.
a maths test.
was difficult and not enough time.
the whole paper is around 35-45 mins.
then i spent about 15mins on the first question.
then i realized that i dont have enough time.
so i speed up.
then left two blanks.
the last two questions.
cos idk how to do and not enough time also.
and after the test, mr heng said that the questions are taken from the tb.
and jiayun told me that the first question is taken from a ws which we have done before.
but i still got it wrong.
then e maths.
mr lee told us our marks for the e maths test.
and i just pass lor. 17/30
then went through some questions.
dismissed.
went to wait for jiayun's sister and while waiting, we were chatting.
talked about alot of stuffs.
then i suddenly say that i feel like dying.
cos die already then dont have to bother about anything.
then i said i wonder how is it to be dead.
is it just lie there, without moving, without any feelings/emotions?
or is it there is another "life" after you die?
then jiayun said is there really heaven and hell?
then went home after that.

and i very stupid loh.
cos last time i file my a maths ws in the file and left it at school.
then ytd i forgot to bring home.
so i cannot study for the test.
so i studied my tb.
then i didnt practise those questions.
then in the end come out. -.-

2009-02-02T18:51:00.000+08:00

if only time can rewind, i want to go back to 15/04/1994.
i want to start everything from zero again.
i want to change my life.
i hate this sucky life of mine.

if only all the ifs can turn into reality...

2009-02-02T18:36:00.005+08:00

oh gosh...
i'm beginning to hate everything around me.
i'm beginning to hate school.
i'm beginning to hate my cca.
i'm beginning to hate them.
it makes me dont feel like going to school.
it makes me dont feel like going for cca.
i regretted coming to this school.
i regretted joining this cca.
and i feel like dropping pure geo.
because i felt that i cant manage.
i dont understand a single thing at all.

2009-01-21T16:50:00.003+08:00

hellos! :)
ok. i know that it has been a long time since i last blogged.
was busy with school work.
i like ytd's pe lesson.
was funfunfun.
anyways, today is a tiring day.
e.lit
copied notes and did group work.
p.geo
copied notes and watched video.
cl
went through ws.
recess.
phy
drew some graph.
chem
quiz.
ma
copied down the hw.
alot of hw sia.
phototaking for idk what.
cca is super stressful.
L&C is getting more and more stressful.
i'm no longer looking forward to the orientation.
sian.
felt like dropping p.geo
cos it's very stress and i cant follow in class.
diediedie
i'm looking forward to CNY.
i'm also looking forward to sc duty.
cos no sc duty very sian.
i shall start revising after CNY.
actually wanted to start revising this week one.
but, since CNY is round the corner, i shall enjoy myself first.
then after CNY, i shall push myself real hard.
ok. i shall end here.
i think i wont be updating so often.
but, continue to tag ok?
byes! :]
stress.stress.stress.stress.stress.stress.stress.stress.stress.stress

2009-01-14T21:10:00.002+08:00

today is a bad day.
in-touch.
e.lit
did a piece of ws.
p.geo
copied notes + wb.
cl
go through the shu yu thingy.
recess.
ate with jiayun.
phy
did some drawings.
chem
took back the quiz + balancing equation + ate marshmallows.
ma
indices, which i'm still blur.

went to 1A with jiayun.
actually wanted to help them decorate the noticeboard one.
but, smth happened...
i hate the way the both of us are being treated.
so, we ignored them and went to the canteen to have our lunch.
after that, did some hw.
then walked past 1A to see how they are doing.
but, i got hit on my head AGAIN.
and i'm like super angry.
so, i shouted.
like wth larh.
i actually shouted at a sec one guy.
so guilty?
but, it's not the first time alr.
as in he hit my head larh.
and i did warn him before alot of times.
then i walked away.
and jiayun was like "you ok anot?"
thanks! :)
went to the mrl to put my bag then to the toilet to tie my hair and back to the mrl for cca.
was ok at the beginning.
but after that, i actually cried.
like wtf larh.
i actually cried in front of so many ppl.
like crybaby lei.
cos lena, sylvia, seeyin, zoe, yazid, wilson... was like "what happen to you?" and "you ok anot?"
then lena noticed my eyes and said "you going to cry already uh?"
and i started crying.
then xingyi told them what happen.
cos she was with me at that time mah.
omg!
so malu larh.
anyways,
thanks, guys! :]
cca ended.
went to look for ms ng for the nyaa thingy.
then chatted with her for awhile and went home.

jiayun is like so cute larh.
she reminded me not to go to school so early like last week.
haha!
ilove1A'09exceptforhim.
crystal: sorry. i promised you that i will go and help out but i didnt. infact, i make you do everything. really very sorry.
1A'09: sorry guys for not helping you all to decorate the noticeboard, which i promised you all to. because something happened. all i can say is, sorry.

2009-01-13T19:21:00.003+08:00

ok. idk what happen to me.
i miss my pri sch,
i miss my pri sch teachers,
i miss my pri sch friends,
i miss netball,
i feel like playing netball all of a sudden.
and i'm soo scared.
i'm scared that i cant follow in the class,
i'm scared that i cant catch up with the others.
idk why but these few days, infact from the beginning of the year, no matter what the teacher say, it just cant go into my brain.
and everyone is like so damn hardworking.
once after sch, they go home, do their hw, then study on their own.
now is only the beginning of the year, but everyone is like revising almost everyday.
and here i am, blogging, slacking, wasting my time.
and i really hate myself for not having a sense of urgency.
i know that all my subject are dropping, but i just dont give a damn.
especially eng.
my eng has always been very sucky.
but i just dont take the effort to improve on it.
infact, i'm still having a "playplay" attitude.
i'm bad in eng resulted in i hate eng. somemore my eng teacher is ms lee, which makes me hate eng more. and how am i going to do well in eng then?
i'm scared that my eng will pull everything down.
and i'm scared that i will drop or retain.
and i'm scared of my 'O' levels, which is next year.
although it's still quite long, i'm beginning to feel the stress.
because everyone around me is like so hardworking.
and what about me?
SLACKING!
as for maths, i've always been quite good at it.
but during maths lesson, idk why i just cant understand a damn thing.
and i'm reallyreallyreally veryveryvery scared.
i'm scared of ALOT of things.
i'm scared of my english, e maths, a maths, physics, chemistry, puregeo, elit...
infact, i'm scared of everything that is related to school.
i must really work very hard from now on.
because i dont want to lose out.
i dont want to regret and cry like how i always do.
i dont want to cry because i am sad, disappointed, upset, regret...
infact, i want to cry because i am happy, surprise...
but no matter how i try, i just cant concentrate.
everytime i tell myself that i must study, i just cant do it.
so in the end, i'm always blaming myself for not studying hard enough.
but it's already too late.
and i dont want my MYE and EYE and 'O' levels to be like that too.
i dont want to have any regrets in life and i dont want to hate myself.
idk why but i just cant.
i feel so stress...
i feel so tired and i want a break...

2009-01-12T16:54:00.004+08:00

ytd is a boredbored day. -.-
p.geo
as usual, copied notes.
e.lit
did some grp work.
but me and chinleng didnt really helped out?
cos we dk the two guy AT ALL.
cl
did smth like a compre?
recess.
was waiting for jiayun but didnt saw her after quite long.
so i went for recess myself.
as in go down myself.
then got caught for walking at the corridor.
not only me lar.
got alot of ppl.
A maths
learn the short division thingy?
cme
mr leonard ong nv go.
got relief teacher.
the first one, idk who. :x
the second one was ms lim.
el
did corrections for hol assignment compre.
ma
i forgot what we did alr. :x
then from cme lesson onwards, until end of sch,
ALOT of ppl went to the toilet lorh.
dk why. :/

tdy is still ok.
rev-up, vertical run.
ran with jiayun.
p.geo
did wb.
el
did "all about myself"
like wth.
pe
took height and weight for some of the ppl, including me.
but i shall not reveal my height and weight.
all i can say is, i want to jian fei.
played captain's ball after that.
ihatethem. (dont be over paranoid)
recess
ate with jiayun.
cl
compo competition.
like so sian larh.
ma
i dont really understand a damn thing.
infact, SO FAR, i think that a maths is easier than e maths?!
ss
i like the teacher.
was touched by what she told us.
phy
okok lorh.

will be going to 1A tmr to help them decor the noticeboard.
quite looking forward to it.
cos i love and miss 1A'09.

2009-01-10T20:16:00.002+08:00

walao eh.
my hp spoil liao.
and it's like only 1 month?
as in 1 month after repairing.
so fast sia.
1 month only lei.
cannot press "back" and "up" and "down" -.-
it's like wth larh.
then i told my dad abt it, hoping he'll let me change a new one.
but then he ask me to use back my old one sio.
ahhh...
i want a new phone!
it's like wtf larh.

2009-01-09T18:53:00.003+08:00

well... just came back from cca fair.
was quite tired.
in the morning, first lesson was Amaths.
okok larh.
but got ALOT of hw.
then el.
was boring.
followed by ss.
and the teacher is quite funny.
then recess.
and chem.
had a quiz for chem.
then dismissed.
go find the other faci for "briefing"
lunch-ed with jiayun.
went to 1A.
and all i can say is: they are very hard to control!
until ms ong came in.
then went to the hall followed by quardrangle.
me and jiayun was not really doing our duty lor.
we are running ard like some mad women.
lols.
me and jiayun kanna bully by our juniors sia.
she kanna slap by her 1B guy.
and i kanna hit on my head THREE times by my 1A guy.
ihatehim larh. -.-

2009-01-08T14:39:00.002+08:00

i'm super-the-stupid tdy.
i thought that tdy is some normal day and we have to assemble at 7+.
then i 7.10am leave home.
and i thought that i'll be late.
so i rushed to school.
and when i reached sch, i saw very few ppl.
then i realised that tdy is thurs and it's supposed to be a late day. -.-
stupid right?!
so i go join jiayun they all.
then ard 8am, zisong asked me, jiayun, eugene, songpei... go do duty.
me, jiayun, songpei did the front gate.
then went back to class.
phy was alright.
but i'm still a little blur.
chi was ok.
copied note and did wb.
el was ok too.
did some ws.
recess.
ate with jiayun then go and find mr heng after that.
we are like so scared lar.
but actually he's ok lah.
chem was alright too.
Amaths is not alright.
Emaths is not ok.
but as compared to Amaths, Emaths is ok larh.

OMG!!!
i'm super-the-stress now.
tdy is my first Amaths lesson.
and i realised that i cant follow.
i just cant catch up with them.
and there's alot of things which idk.
and most importantly, i've forgotten some/most of my sec1 work. -.-
diediedie
felt like dropping Amaths.
but i cant.
i cant carry on like this.
i must catch up with the others.
i want extra-lessons.
i want to do well in Amaths.
and i realised that during Emaths lesson, i'm abit blur too.
howhowhow
dieidiedie
i need help.
OMG!!!

anyways, cca fair tmr.
and i'm involved in the sc duty.
which means i'll be able to see my 1A babies again.
haha!
as for L&C, hopefully i'll be able to help out too larh.
shall end here.

2009-01-07T21:21:00.004+08:00

well...
idk what to post.
ok. went to sch ard 7am?
was sitting in the front. ><
i want to do sc duty.
cos no duty very sian. -.-
first proper lesson for me.
as in today is the first day for lessons for the sc.
ok. idk what i'm talking also.
anyways, i'm scared that i cant catch up with the others. :(
cos i miss 3 days of lesson. :[
changed sitting arrangement in class.
sat with jonathan.
was ok.
in-touch.
blahblahblah
elective lit.
i'm super-the-blur.
but i shall not post what happen.
if u want to know, ask me.
pure geo.
as usual, copy notes.
cl.
i hate my chinese teacher lar.
recess.
ate with 2H'08 girls.
phy.
was ok.
chem.
was slacking.
ma.
still ok lah.
dismissed.
lunch-ed with jiayun.
cca.
prepared for the cca fair.
was busy + tired + hungry.
outlined the poster.
outlined the flyer.
blow + tie balloon.
and the balloon is super-the-dusty.
and balloon are like busting everywhere.
then in the end, went home at ard 6+?
anyways,
seeyin, sylvia, zoe, lena, cheerup larh. ^^

2009-01-06T14:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SIS!
kk. i'm back from the sec one orientation camp 09.
had fun. :)
but at the same time, it's very tiring. :(
and i kinda like 1A'09.
esp. zahirah and atiqah.
the two pretty girls.
haha!
anyways,
on the first day, which is fri, we reached sch at 6.45am for a briefing by ms lim.
then followed by morning assembly, principal's address, spot check.
after that, we went to 1A classroom for ice-breaking games.
then recess at 10am.
after recess, 1A's form teacher took over and i, together with the others 3H-ians went back to class for awhile to take a look.
next, at ard 11.30am, we went to the hall for school cheer and star clap.
and then debrief + briefing for the seniors and went home.
on the second day, which is mon, we reached sch at 7am.
then morning assembly, discipline reflection.
after that, teambuilding games.
was fun. :]
me and crystal got splashed. :[
and the water is smelly. ><
when we finished everything, we thought that we are the first.
but, we are actually the second. -.-
had recess, then preparation of performance item.
fauzi taught them the cheers.
then crystal, me and fauzi taught them the dance.
followed by class lunch at 1pm.
after that, preparation of performance item again.
and dinner at 4.30pm.
it's like super-the-early lar.
then personal time and finally, the night performance.
1A got the most teamwork prize or smth like that lah.
walk ard the sch with crystal and six guys from 1A.
then wash-up and supper.
after that, light off.
and from 12+? all the way to 4+? i couldnt sleep.
actually, idk whether i did sleep anot.
cos it's super-the-cold + the floor is super-the-hard and my butt hurts + i'm quite hungry. -.-
wake up at ard 4++? tdy.
wash-up then 5-b-x then breakfast.
morning assembly, principal's dialogue, class meeting.
for the class meeting, we select 1A's class committee.
then recess, briefing + talk + school anthem.
and finally, home sweet home FOR THE SEC ONE ONLY.
for the seniors, we had a debrief by mr samuel and briefing by ms ong then took some pics and finally, home sweet home!
lols.
there'll be lesson starting from tmr onwards.
not used to it sia.
kk. shall end here. bb.

2009-01-04T20:06:00.001+08:00

well...
orientation camp tmr.
and i have not packed my bag yet. ><
idk what to bring sia.
-.-
ok. shall go and pack my bag now.
byes!

2009-01-03T19:57:00.004+08:00

changed the font colour at the side.
>>>>>>>>
now, my whole blog is in black and white.
two reasons:
1) i like the 2 colours' combination.
2) it's like my life. so-not-the interesting. cos it's only made up of 2 colours.
ok. shall end here.

2009-01-03T08:10:00.002+08:00

ytd was the first day of sch. :)
all i know abt 3H'09 was that our form teacher is ms ng.
because i've only been to 3H'09 for like 10mins?
because of the sec one orientation.
i'm in-charge of 1A, together with crystal. :]
1A is still ok.
orientation camp on mon and tue.
quite looking forward to it.
but i scared i will come that thing. :(
haha!
and the worse thing is that we dont even know what to bring lar. :[
so budget sia.
dont even have a list of what to bring.
actually i have to go to school later de.
for sc meeting.
but, cant make as i've got smth on.
the next meeting, i also cannot make it.
too bad lor.
who ask them to put both of the meeting on sat.
actually lena wanna meet with me first de.
but, too bad. i cant make it.
sorry larh.
ok. shall end here.
bye!

2008-12-31T20:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR in advanced! ^^
time flies.
so fast 2008 is going to end le.
and 2009 is coming soonsoonsoon.
3+ more hours to go.
i wonder how 2009 will be.
hope 2009 will be a better year.
ok. here's my new year resolutions:
i want to CHANGE! i hate my sucky attitude.
i want to be a better person.
i want to be liked and loved by other ppl.
i want to spend moremore time with my family.
i want to build strong relationships with friends.
i want to do well in all tests and exams.
i want to study hard and focus on my studies and do well.
i want to be able to handle things better.
i want to ......
i dont want to disappoint my family in whatever way.
i dont want to argue with my sis anymore.
i dont want to fail in any relationships - friendship.
i dont want to be the odd one out anymore.
i dont want others to hate me.
i dont want to fail any tests and exams.
i dont want to be a burden to others.
i dont want to be like last year and this year, diao er lang dang.
i dont want to ......
fyi, i'm not emo-ing ok?!
ok.
i'm count-ing down to 2009;
i'm count-ing down to school reopen-ing;
i'm count-ing down to CNY;
i'm count-ing down to my birthday...
and i hope 2009 will be a slow year.
cos i dont want 2010 to "reach" so soon.
cos i dont want 'O' levels!
anyways,
when school reopens, i'd be busy.
i'd be busy with my studies and homeworks and etc...
and i wont have time to blog so often.
but, continue to tag ok?
haha!
shall end here.
blog again next year.
byebye!

2008-12-25T19:54:00.003+08:00

hohoho!
MERRY CHRISTMAS !!
lols.
anyways, had fun ytd and tdy. :)
went shopping at jp with dad and mum. :]
bought a fbt. :)
think will be going there with them again soon?
to get smth yup.
then went to my cousin's house at ard 6++?
ate, talked, laughed, tv-ed...
then played with card games from 9pm to 1am?
those who lose will either drink/eat.
and i took ard 2/3 sips of red wine.
and ate lots of food.
then went home after that and reached home at ard 2am?
slept at 2+?
then tdy, wake up at ard 8+?
went to ss with dad and sis.
meet my goddad and aunt.
then went home at ard 9+?
ACTUALLY, going to meet liyoke and jingyi at 1pm de.
but then, liyoke called me at ard 10.45? to tell me that the meeting time change to 11.30 liao.
and i have to rush like hell. -.-
in the end, i'm the first to reach. -.-
went to subway to have breakfast.
jingyi nia larh. me and liyoke stared at her.
haha!
then went "shopping" AIMLESSLY ard jp.
went to toy 'r' us.
walked ard. keep stopping. played(!)
saw alot of toys which we are so tempted to...
then went to kopitiam to have our lunch.
me and liyoke nia larh. this time round, it's jingyi's turn to stare at us.
lols.
couldnt find a place.
so we stand next to a table and wait.
waited for like 30mins?
freaking long sia.
jingyi left after awhile.
then after eating, liyoke accompany me to fairpricextra to see smth.
then went home after that.
btw, the three of us felt like organising a 6.1'06 gathering.
but, it's quite difficult lar.
see how first lah.

2008-12-23T18:12:00.002+08:00

woots!
we managed to finish up everything just now.
met yazid at 1.30pm.
then while i'm on the bus, i'm super-the-angry.
cos on the bus, i sat outside.
then there's this aunty? who wants to go in.
then somehow, when she go in, her bag swing-ed and hit my chin.
then she didnt even apologise larh.
somemore when she sit down, she took such a big space larh.
freaking asshole.
and there's smth blackblack on my chin now.
and i still have to go out tmr and thurs and fri one lei.
damn it.
met yazid at the library and did what we are left with.
discuss talk laugh joke
then he went home and i went shopping ard jp.
bought lots of things.

aiya! that's what happens when i go shopping everytime.
and the worse thing is, the things which i bought are useless one lor.
everytime buy alr, put it at home and nv use it.
so, i'm a spendthrift! :x

2008-12-23T10:31:00.002+08:00

this week is a busy week for me. :(
and i'm still struggling with my holiday assignment after such a long time. -.-
went out with dad, mum, sis on sun. :)
ytd
went to jp with sis.
went to the bank.
then to the fairprice xtra to see see.
then to kfc to have our lunch.
then to the popular.
then back to the fairprice xtra to buy smth.
and sis went home after that.
then i went to the library for cca.
supposed to meet yazid, wilson, coelina, vanessa.
(key word: supposed)
but only me and yazid is present.
the other 3 didnt went for the meeting.
they pangseh us. :[
so me and yazid did like 3/4 of it.
had fun with him. :]
the "ghostly passage" is a headache though.
but in the end, we still managed to finish up most of the work.
(key word: most)
so proud of ourselves.
haha!
tdy
suppose to be going to www with my cousin.
(key word: suppose)
but didnt.
cos she's going with a few other ppl whom idk.
so, didnt go with her larh.
going to meet yazid for cca again later on.
(key word: again)
hope to finish up everything by tdy.
even if we didnt manage to finish up everything by tdy, it's ok.
cos he'll be meeting coelina and vanessa on wed.
to brief them or smth.
so, going to meet yazid again later.
hope we have fun like ytd. :)
tmr
no activities in the morning/afternoon.
but there's an activity in the evening/night.
going to my cousin's house for a christmas party or smth. :]
thurs
yay-ness!
will be meeting up with liyoke and jingyi. :]
it's been such a long time since we last see each other larh. :[
and i'm looking forward to it.
fri
going out with dad and mum in the morning/afternoon. :)
and with dad, mum, bro, sis in the evening/night. :))
woots!
ok. shall end here.

2008-12-20T20:20:00.002+08:00

nah... i'm updating my blog.
thurs
went back to sch for the registration briefing.
after that, did the dance thingy.
had fun with jiayun and gina. :)
fri
wake up early in the morning.
super-the-early.
and i'm super-the-tired. :(
went back to sch for the registration.
was tired. :[
saw joy and chatted with her. :]
was slacking. :x
had fun with neh suo en. :)
sat
went to sch to learn the dance steps for the sc item.
as well as the dance steps for class performance.
dropped my hp. :(

was quite looking forward to the next few days.
going out tmr.
meeting yazid they all for cca on mon.
MAYBE going to www with my cousin.
meeting up with liyoke and jingyi on thurs. :]
kk. shall end here.

2008-12-17T13:15:00.002+08:00

ok. it has been quite some time since i last blogged.

so, this post might be quite long.

& fyi, i'm still struggling with my holliday assignment.
diediedie -.-
anyways, below is a list of what i did or what i'll be doing from 13th to 20th.
sat
went for a christmas thingy with my dad and sis.
the person's house is super-the-big-and-nice can.
he's damn rich.
anyways, played some games and sing some songs and exchanged gifts yep.
then went home after that.
sun
went swimming with my cousins.
swam for quite long yep.
mon
lunch-ed with my sis at jp.
then she went to bbdc.
so, shopped ard jp.
then met her again and we went shopping ard the extended jp.
it's damn big larh.
tue
went to boonlay with sis.
actually wanted to have our lunch at the market there.
but then when we reached there, we found out that it's closed.
so, we ate at the kopitiam.
wed
computer time!
like finally!
cos sat and sun, bro's time.
then mon and tue, sis's time.
so, tdy is my turn yep.
thur
sian.
still need to go back to sch for the sec one registration briefing.
fri
have to reach sch at 6.30am in the morning.
for the stupid sec one registration.
i wanna sleep!
sat
need to go back to sch for the orientation briefing.
sianz.
pls larh. it's saturday lei.

2008-12-12T10:10:00.004+08:00

i'm back from the class chalet! :)
anyways, supposed to meet bri and qy on 2.30pm ytd.
but then bri called me at 10+ and said that the meeting time change to 12.30pm.
so i informed qy.
but then she said that she cant make it so early.
so i'm only meeting bri.
meet alrd, when to ntuc to shop for the food and so on.
mrt-ed all the way to pasir ris.
bus-ed and walk-ed to where the chalet is.
when we reached there, we went to the toilet to "settle" the chicken.
was quite fun. :]
but the whole hand is oily and cold. :[
after awhile, qy and charis came.
went to the beach walk-walk and played volley ball with the both of them.
went back and slack ard.
watched tv.
qy went to buy toothbrush.
ate abit. cos we're hungry and the bbq havent started. :(
went back and started bbq-ing. :)
but i didnt really helped out in the beginning.
was watching tv.
helped out abit in the end.
then after bbq-ing, watched tv again.
then me and charis went out to eat the chicken.
andy, qy, sc helped us bbq. :)
haha!
went up to the room to slack and it was damn funny ok.
qy was like laughing so loudly.
blahblahblah
12+am, went to mac.
ate mcflurry! :]
walked back, went to the beach and the swimming pool.
was sitting on the edge of the swimming pool (secretly).
was slacking ard.
went to mac at 4am AGAIN.
went back and qy jumped into the swimming pool.
lols.
slept from 6am to 7am.
but only slept for abt 30mins.
cos i sleep and wakeup, sleep and wakeup...
didnt really sleep much cos i was sleeping on the stairs!
do you know how difficult it is to sleep on the stairs?
anyways, when i woke up, my right wrists is super-the-painful.
cos i use my right wrists to support my head.
left the chalet at 7am with charis.
was tired but not sleepy.
or should i say that i want to sleep but i cant.
ok. shall end here.

fxck.
my spec is slanted thanks to someone.
and the spec is quite new.
one mnth or lesser.
and that someone didnt even apologised.
fxcker.

[edited]
good morning! :)
i know that it's not morning anymore.
but i just woke up from my sleep/nap.
slept for like 1hr?
1hr + morning that 30 mins = 1hr30mins of sleep.
i'm still lack of sleep.
i wanna sleep.
ok. i know that i'm like a pig.
keep on sleeping.
but, i'm really very tired/sleepy.
so, bo bian.
anyways, the swimming pool at the chalet there is polluted. :(
got ppl wear slipper and went inside the baby pool.
then for the deeper pool, it's worse.
there's a group of guys, they tied a frog to a string/rope.
and put it in the water.
then take out alr, they swing so hard that the frog flew out.
it's like omg larh.
and they are like so cute.
they say : huh?! die one ar? i scared lei.
that means they're scared of dead frog.
and not scared of alive frog.
i thought it should be the other way round?
lol.
ok. shall end here.

2008-12-11T08:43:00.002+08:00

this is my 100th post.
wahahaha.
lols
anyways, will be going for the class chalet's bbq later on.
will be meeting brigitte and qiuyun yep. :)
after the bbq thingy, qy and me will be staying overnight. :]
quite looking forward to it!?
but idk how much $ to bring and what to bring. :(
qy, faster online lar.
i wanna discuss with u all the details.
haha!
shall end here.
hopefully, my next post shall be on the 12th?

2008-12-09T16:47:00.002+08:00

went out with clique6+2-4! :)
lol.
ok. went out with lena, sylvia, zoe! :]
actually wanted to meet up with pri sch frens de.
liyoke, xinmei, jingyi. :)
but then xm gng out. :(
so postponed.
anyways, met them at 11.45 outside golden village.
watched Beverly Hills Chihuahua.
was cute. :]
after that, went to fill our stomach.
then walked and bus-ed to sheng siong.
ok. i know we're crazy. but cant be helped.
and here i am, blogging!
lol.
ok. shall end here.
btw, i've decided to go for the class chalet's bbq. ^^

2008-12-04T12:51:00.003+08:00

went to school just now.
learned some dance step.
jiayun cut her hair. she's cute.
went to kfc with lena, gina, chelsea and boonying.
lena and gina went off first.
then the three of us continue eating.
after that, went home.
and here i am, blogging.
lol
i want outings with pri sch friends, esp liyoke!
i want cliquesix+two outings!
i want lots and lots of gatherings or outings!

2008-12-03T14:28:00.004+08:00

i'm tired.
i'm tired keeping it a secret.
sometimes, i feel like saying it out and let everyone know.
but i cant.
i'm scared that if i let the others know about it, everything will change again.
and i dont want ppl to look at me using that type of expression.
but i really feel like saying it out.
and once i let it out, i wont have to keep it a secret anymore.
i dont have to "hide" anymore.
i feel so tired "hiding" it from the others.
but since i've alrd kept it for two years, why cant i keep it for another two years?
but, what's the point of keeping it a secret?
what if the others still find out?
wouldnt it be worse?
but, i really cant bring myself to let it out.
so, i think i shall cotinue keeeping it a secret.
to those who know what i'm refering to, please help me keep it a secret too.
and to those who dont know what i'm refering to, i'd rather you dont know.

2008-12-02T08:44:00.004+08:00

ok. i shall not let my blog rot.
went to lot 1 with mummy ytd to shop.
shopped for like 1-2 hrs?
dental appointment later at 1pm.
sian.
and i'm still struggling with my holiday assignment.
i keep telling myself that i have to finish everything by the end of nov.
but i didnt.
instead, i'm left with alot still not done.
-.-
currently working on my book talk.
i've finished eng book reviews, eng vocab ws, chi compo, ma ws...
i'm still left with eng compos, eng compre, eng book talk, chi idioms (read), chem ws (1 qns), phy wb (half way through)...
yay-ness!
seeyin said that she will lend me her hot shot disc.
but, we didnt meet up.
cos it's either i not free or she not free.
anywyas,
thankyou, seeyin!
(L)
i want to watch hotshot!
i want 6.1'06 gathering!
i want clique6+2 outing!
and i still have not made up my mind whether i should go to the class chalet or not. -.-
ok. shall end here.

[edited]
alright. just came back from the dental appointment.
the dentist was quite okay.
quite friendly yap.
did scaling/xi ya.
although it's not my first time doing it, i'm super-the-tense.
idk why though.
maybe i'm scared?
haha!
took abt 20mins?
yep. that's it.

2008-11-26T20:05:00.002+08:00

nothing much happen actually.
it's just that i have the urge to post.
cut my hair (again).
not very short, not very long.
LOL
ard shoulder length?
was quite thin because that's what i requested for.
shall end here.

2008-11-25T15:09:00.004+08:00

ate steamboat on sun and had a @#$%^&* terrible stomachache & diarrhoea & vomit -.-
anyways, went to school ytd for the open house.
first time doing it.
was quite fun.
but then very few parents.
if there's more parents, it'll be better.
played uno.
blah blah blah
after my shift at ard 12.45(?) went to the bookshop and took the books home all by myself.
was super-the-heavy. 10+kg(?)
and now, my hands & shoulders are aching like hell.
after that, went to the library to meet yazid, wilson, coelina, vanessa to do the cca thingy.
i met them later because i have to go back to school for the open house.
actually, we didnt do much also.
after that, went to borrowed some books with wilson & yazid.
yazid keeps "flirt-ing"
then when we went back to our seat, saw this cute girl/boy.
and he/she was like "mummy!"
so cute larh.
went to mac after that.
then to arcade.
and finally, went home!
ok. shall end here.

[edited]
went to ss just now with daddy & mummy to "drink coffee"
ate ice kacang
daddy gave me $5 to pay for the ice kacang ($1.50)
then the person gave me a change of $3.50
and i thought that he gave me the wrong change
but then he didnt lor
cos i thought daddy gave me $2
paiseh lei
it's not that idk how to calculate ok
it's that i thought daddy gave me $2 instead of $5
super-the-embarrassed sia -.-