i'm tired.
i tried so hard to change myself.
but i cant.
no matter how hard i try, it'll still be the same.
from the moment i stepped into wwss, everything changed.
and i really regretted coming to wwss.
i have to deal with schoolwork and relationship problem.
and i mean friendship.
i failed in almost all relationship.
first, it's 1H girls.
at first, i felt nothing.
because i know i have cliquesix.
but after that, i really regretted.
when cliquesix/cliquesix+two is formed, i'm real happy.
because i know that they will be there for me.
they are whom i call true friends.
they teached me the real meaning of "friendship".
and i thought that that they are my life.
but, i am or may be wrong.
because i felt that they hate me.
esp _____ & _____
i'm really very confused.
sometimes, i felt that they are so good to me.
they are there for me, and indeed, they are my life.
but other times, i felt that they dislike, or even hate me.
no matter what i say or do, they seem to dont like it.
i really felt myself struggling with relationship problems.
i'm tired, really.
i tried my best to change.
but i cant.
no matter how hard i try, it'll still be the same.
because i am who i am.
i am KOHWANNI and that's it.
no matter how hard i try to change myself, i'll still be KOHWANNI.
i'll still be the one with attitude problem.
i'll still be the one whom everyone hates.
all i asked for is just a true friend.
am i asking for too much?
if the answer is yes,
then i'd rather have no friends at all.
and if have friend(s) equals to dealing with relationship problems,
i'd rather have no friends at all too.
why is it that other people can get whatever they want but i cant?
i just want healthy-ness, safe-ness & HAPPINESS.
is it really so difficult?
tell me!